let me take you on the ride of your life
Jesslyn Widodo
My name is obvious stated above. HAHAHAHAHAHA
I will make this blog my diary. So if there's any of you reading this, you are one of my close friend that i trust.
You will read alot of God miracles happened in my life here.
So... be prepared and be surprised. :D
Love,
Jae


Quote of the day;
God told me that He is going to guide me to be a better person and cure me from my sickness.
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MY HEART IS SCREAMING ㅠ_ㅠ Sunday, November 23, 2008 12:16 PM
I THOUGHT my Life WAS perfect ...
but ...
the reality is it isn't...
Today is a shocking day for me [REALLY]...
although I did not do an energy straining activity but I felt really really tired ...
Probably my mind is tired...
Tired of all the true that I wish it were all LIES..
OR.. I would never realise of...
*LOST A FRIEND
*SAW SOMETHING
*REALISE SOMETHING
Ok my situation is like below...
In the year 2005-2006.. I attend a bible camp that was organized by my church...
That was my first bible camp in my whole life...
So I was really excited...
During the camp I make some friend...
So... we exchange e-mail and phone at the end of the camp...
a week after the camp I was chatting with one of my friend... we were chatting like an old friend...
but the next day those friendliness was gone....
a week later... there's a person added me in msn...
so when the person online...
the person asked who am I...
I was confused...
the person was the one added me and asked me who am I ...
after the person find out about the problem ..
the person realize it was his room mate who added me in his msn...
and his room mate is the friend I chat with previously....
after we knew each other for a period of time...
since we were from the same church we met a few times...
after knowing each other well enough...
we went out as friend a few times ...
so during the end of year school Holiday we went holiday with our own family ...
so we no longer contact one another...
and when School reopen... the person never ever contacted me back...
but the thing is that ... I had already fallen for a lost guy ....
He is lost in the sense ... he is not my close friend anymore...
but I still do see him sometimes when I went to the mall or church...
Until today I never love anyone except my parent and him...
Whenever I talked this problem with my aunt or an adult ...
they told me to forget about him and find a better guy ...
but ... The thing is ... It is not like ... you wanted to forget then can just forget about it...
Whenever I meet him I can't breathe properly .. and It's true...
I never felt like that towards anyone before though...
Today.. I went out with my cousin and his friends
So .. my cousin introduce me to a guy ...
I looked in his eyes while I talked...
but guess what...
haizzzz...
I felt nothing .. I felt like I'm talking to a girl friend...
and because of that lost guy ...
I always believe that I can't find love because of my appearance which is
FAT,FLAT NOSE, SMALL EYES and etc....
now .. I really need a friend who can change my point of view...
I REALLY NEED THAT SPEACIAL PERSON...
I always pray to GOD... and I always believe that God have planned out well for me...

whoahhhh I FELT SO RELIEVED...
hehehehehhehe...
that is a story that I always share with my friend or anyone I know...
I don't know why I have to share that story ...
but really please...
If you all want to be my friend or anyone related to me...
PLEASE PLEASE
be my friend not because of my appearance or my situation or my family ...
but please be my friend because of the way I am .. the real me ..my real poersonality and etc....
THANKS :D for reading ...

J E S S L Y N the journey never ends...